Do what thou wilt shall be the whole of the Law
This has been my will for nearly all my life to build the Hierarchy and be a true Lineage with a true Great Work. This is the glory of my life.
It is important to have goals, true, but how can you know what these aspirations are without knowing your True Self? The key is see yourself as you really are free from those complexes that dogma and indoctrinations have been so sorely imposed upon you. Through all this you will be met with those who cannot understand who you are; and would sway you if you let them even becoming a vampire where you might drop to all fours completely. I never, never, permitted this to occur. I don’t care who you are, how rich you are, how beautiful you are, how smart you think you are, or as a woman if you make the slightest remark that goes against my will to be a Thelemite and my aspirations you are out the door!
While on one of my adventures to the Mall years ago I happened upon someone I had worked with at one of those temporary employment jobs who was baffled on who I could be. He knew I did my internship at the emergency room of a local hospital but I seemed to stop short of going any further with that particular schooling to take an employment which I was overqualified for. What had occurred is that particular job began to be a strain on my aspirations and Great Work where the hours were too long and the demand of my time would have hindered my Path. So I outright quit that job and changed jobs even though I was doing quite well with it. How strange this seemed to this person who could not relate to how I would give up something like a real professional employment with decent pay. As it turned, and from my perspective I did not falter on my aspirations and resumed my work at the pace and stamina that was necessary for my personal initiations. Yet, from this person who observed what I had done it didn’t make sense. After all, I didn’t seem to be having any problems and my reaction seemed an extreme breach of linear logic.
His question to me at the Mall was interesting, he asked me, “just what do you do all day?”, trying to make sense of someone who seemed to have made decisions in my career that contained peculiar contradictions. I smiled at the thought of this person being so baffled as not to understand my dedication to the Path, and replied. “I’ve decided to become a famous writer”. He shook his head in bewilderment and replied, “Oh yeah, how’s that working out for you?”. I smiled again knowing he would never understand and shrugged. I replied, “A nod is as good as a wink to a blind horse.” I then walked away from without looking back knowing that giving him any further information was pointless. After all, such concepts as initiation, the Path, spiritual enlightenment, fulfillment of Oaths, magical work, yoga work, study or memorization applying the instruction of the Master Therion’s genius Liberi, and my dedication to the Law of Θελημα did not deserve explanation to such a casual associate whose observations had completely different parameters with regards to what the will would manifest what timeline.
A family member might try to sway you from your path. A lover might make demands on you. You may be investigated for being involved with the occult. You may even be targeted on social media finding those who falsely you accuse you of being a satanist. All of them cannot know nor will to know and they never can know the glory of initiation nor the truth of magical secrets.
As someone called a Thelemite be warned that you will eventually be vexed by dispersion; and a moment of any number of foolish decisions can mean a lifetime of a timeline that need not have occurred. That fifteen seconds of decision is quite ironic where you are at the crossroads of your Path that if you make that fifteen second decision out of frustration or in the midst of some ordeal you have thrown it all away. Only when you are on the other side of the ordeal where adjustment has occurred do you see what might have occurred; and as you mediate on it you see it in any number of students that had potential but threw it all away where the ordeal got the better of them. I did not let that happen to me. For when you have actually experienced that first real initiation you know what is really important. You will either move forth where you come out smelling like roses or go the way of a slave. Without a doubt, that person at the Mall had insufficient data to judge me; and it would have pointless to explain myself to such a profane who might be incarnations from a timeline where he would become an initiate; or perhaps he was a dog where his death was permanent. Who am I to plot his course; and who is he to judge me? The answer is he would never understand so walking away was the solution.
Are you a young Thelemite trying to move away from your false self to the realization of your True Self, to the eventuality of your True Will? Very well, then you may very well be of us where it is identical in observation that you are being tested to see if you can useful for the Secret Chiefs and dedication must parallel real magical work.
Take seriously the Master Therion’s advice to “Invoke often” and develop your concentration along our lines placed before you in our Liberi to develop concentration with your asana work. Realize that choosing our Path does not mean self sacrifice but simply choosing a Path that doesn’t include those particulars that would be so viciously demanded by dogma and indoctrinations.
I actually broke up with a woman years ago that on the surface was incredibly beautiful and had a charming personality. She made a chance remark that perhaps we should move to the French Riviera and forget all this nonsense about spiritual enlightenment. Within twenty four hours she was gone from my life. Another woman, who was twenty pounds overweight (which never mattered to me) told me when discussing the importance of dedication who I was having an affair with made another remark, “I’m not going anywhere.” The context was her dedication was going to be steadfast. I passed on magical secrets to her, and eventually she moved to another city where I remember her to this day as a true sister although she eventually died of cancer she was a true Priestess. Those who are dedicated and have proved their words by their deeds I never forget; and those who betray the Order I never forgive.
Fifty years as a Thelemite does have some adventures with the Priestess but I have covered some of these adventures in past essays.
The important message I have for any Thelemite is to observe caution on who you associate with; and let nothing hinder you towards the true Initiations.
Love is the law, love under will