Do what thou wilt shall be the whole of the Law
I dare say with the improvement of the weather here in the Northeast of USA I am absolutely relieved to be on the other side of quite the severe winter. How exciting it is for the April Feast to be only several months away where members from all over shall be greeting me with the Law. I have already received word from one loyal member that he actually has made himself free for all three days. Perhaps we will exceed the highest number of those attending this coming April; or fewer than usual. It is always exciting to see someone come that you thought would not make it. I do love the April Feast as any Thelemite will confirm are three glorious days of Feasting.
I recently received a letter from a person I have known for many, many years even going back prior to my earliest existing student. Any advice I gave him back when I knew him years ago has been put to the back of my memory where I hadn’t realized
how serious he really was to have actually remembered so much of what I taught him back in 1981 e.v.. Of course I shall not mention his name; and many years have elapsed where correspondence began or resumed where he expressed some background regret on how it all turned out. Yet, from my perspective this was simply his karma this incarnation and he is yet young enough being younger than me to have several more decades to move forth. Although the correspondence is too sacred and private to reveal I would proclaim that he need not regret what experience has taught him.
There is no grace, there is no guilt!!
It should be proclaimed without overmuch rationalization; and even in those most random moments of contemplation that if I hadn’t experienced what I experienced I wouldn’t of learned what I have learned, and turned out the way I turned out to eventually unfold my True Self. Why, of course. I’ll simply utter no more on this subject on those who give stupid lists of tedious regrets of what they wished they had known for it seems to me for me to regret anything I have endured or have experienced misses the concept of Hadit Unto Nuit. Aside from being a bit nervous at how I was, somehow that old self developed. Looking through my old magical records can be quite stimulating and my advice is never, never throw away those old magical records. They are going to very important for introspection when you become like me an elder in the Thelemic Community that has sincerity to discuss the natural growth of the child and give any number of audits that shall assist the serious aspirant.
Not everything was difficult for me but what was difficult I really struggled with. It took me a long time to finally get the rigidity of the Dragon Asana and I started at the early days of Probationer. My solution came finally where doing stretching exercises prior to asana assisted my slow progress. Other Tasks from the Oaths were met with much less strain like pranayama, memorization of Chapters, astral work and so forth. The struggle with Dragon Asana was a necessary effort that actually build my stamina on other planes. I bring this up noting that no aspirant is going to be good at everything; and many have the obstacle of conquering the astral plane. I actually found this very exciting where you slowly and carefully bring symbols into your activities; and Liber 777 is truly a glorious method to build ritual. I actually developed a method of bringing those who struggled with astral to assist them. Sometimes it works well but some I have not been able to assist where the mental block is too strong. A.C. does mention that he had a method of assisting others with those who had difficulty with astral but I was never able to find what he actually did to assist them. So, I developed my own method. I might point out that unless you have actually conquered the astral you will be less likely to imagine what to do to assist those by inventing such a method which is such a common issue among aspirants. Well, my method involved walking astral stairs rather than the rising of the planes which is the instruction in Liber O. The walking of the astral stairs method works better for some aspirants who have troubles with the rising of planes method. Visualizing the astral feet on astral stairs assisted to overcome the obstacle. Yet, it never works for everyone. Some use Liber O and some have to devise their own method. Of course, I never teach this method to anyone but those who have signed the Oath and Task; and years ago I had an aspirant withdraw when I would not permit his father come to what became known as my “astral sessions” where I actually used the method for an entire array of students who had signed the Oath and Task. Any group activity no one is invited but Hierarchy and this even when I am teaching my carving methods for making wands; and I already stated that we “veil the shrine” where I forbid the Gnostic Catholic Mass to have any participants other than membership. I do realize other Lineage do allow profanes to come to the Gnostic Mass. Well, I tend my Garden and you tend yours.
My instructions from my Instructor shall be acknowledged and obeyed He being dead or alive.
Love is the law, love under will