Do what thou wilt shall be the whole of the Law
It was about a decade ago that I who have known to display tongue in the cheek rascal remarks common in the deep south remarked to a sister that as a consequence of me knowing all the secrets of sex magick it might be a good idea for all the sisters to line up for instruction. Well, that didn’t go over very well; and her look of shock where for a moment there she thought I was seriously making a nasty maneuver. Of course, being intelligent she eventually laughed; but such a situation could of very well turned out to be an ordeal for her where she might of left the Order. Bearing such a scenario in mind I have had some very serious discussions about success and failure with students. Keep in mind that the student could be paranoid enough to leave simply when their ideas, being inconsistent with the discipline of Hierarchy simply resign. Of course, they usually blame the Superior or Instructor. It is never, never their fault, don’t you know?
Some time ago a sister of the Order showed incredible growth for a short period of time only to be found a few years later dead of a drug overdose. What comes to mind shall be that period where she hadn’t yet become such a train wreck where I had an important conversation with her explaining all the years of my Path where I experienced students who either failed miserably or succeeded beyond my anticipation of their merit. The conversation seemed to be a radiant success. She nodded in approval of how the Hierarchy fortifies the fit; and eliminates the fit. She had turned in her magical record; and had memorized her Chapter. While all this was occurring I was being warned about her from others in the Hierarchy that something was wrong. I listened to them wondering how they could judge her after her dedication. Apparently, she was far more careful with me than others in the Hierarchy. Would she succeed or fail? Eventually, that important conversation where I described some of more interesting events of students either failing or succeeding became a forgotten and distant memory as her drugs unfolded not her True Self but the awakened voices of the abyss. Within months of she leaving my immediate tutelage she was found dead of an overdose. I had the expression that some deep karmic handicap that only unveiled itself by her demise meant that this lifetime her lessons were over with; and she would return in another lifetime to continue where she left off. Whether the reincarnation theory is true or not I can at least go over some of that conversation by discussing failures and successes over the years. I really am being sincere and honest when I explain that certain patterns or reactions always seem to be notable in those who fail; and when someone has truly gained a Grade they either establish themselves in their Sephira deciding that the hurdle is too high to make; or actually move forth at a slow but sure pace to advance again. For those who fail the voice of the abyss, ruach rationalizations always seem to come up where blaming the Hierarchy instead of themselves, finding some stupid logic that we resemble someone’s idea of a cult, or in some cases they try to start over with other failures trying to create a Imperator of Lineage when they cannot command the attention of their own growth or self discipline trying to criticize and end up persecuting or worse. How curious it was that the trio of the last failures attempting a last ditch after failing, resemble the lower planes of the original supernal Triad of Reformulation. Well, that Qlippoth Triad that existed from my Lineage are all deceased and all three whose claim to eternal glory ended with them where any legacy they could of brandished with pride was shattered by their compromise of self volition, lack of self discipline and foolish presumption.
Why of course! I already know that you think you know what I need to know; and seem to be under the delusion that teaching it will be of value to my Path. Be that as it may, the truth is I know what I need to know and what to concentrate on while you are lost in the delusion of what I might have become, what I really became, what you have truly become and what will become of you if you persist in your folly. It should go without saying again but I’ll say it anyway that you should observe caution that your criticism, being incorrect, means you are persecuting; and nothing that in any way constitutes constructive criticism can exist for some like you with so little experience of what my reality is, what my aspirations are, what I have accomplished or what I have done or what I am presently doing. If you failed the Order; or resigned or were cut contact with, or expelled or not permitted advancement in the Grades you should not fuss around me who came out smelling like roses with my Superior while you descended back to the valley too afraid that the billy goats would plunge you down the cliff of your failure with their objections that you did not belong on the mountain. Be warned that I am going to be alive for a long time; and I will not be phased to observe you resign from the Order, get expelled from the Order, die of a drug overdose; or marry a profane lawyer or some other so-called profession that will patronize you with his or her intellect where you piss away your life away from your original aspirations. You left the Order when your Superiors would not adhere to your ideas or idea of what should be standard for Hierarchy? Well, make up stupid stories about we being a cult; or create video after video after video or essays amounting to volumes you will never be permitted to return; and nothing you write will be of any significance. Well, are you stating it was all the fault of your Superiors trying to enslave you; and realize I have heard it before. You can lie, and you can lie and you can lie some more. Yet, more lies will be the standard rationalization of your format backed up by your hurt ego that no one would acknowledge you when your book knowledge being sufficient you drop to all fours spiritually and magically. Perhaps I should remind you how long I have been on the Path. You must, if you are sincere and honest where you haven’t faltered on your path learn to recognize someone whose black brother current is manifesting in their being where they are proving themselves verified as unworthy while simultaneously spitting blares of objection that only on the intellectual planes seem cogent.
Rest assured that any disgruntled aspirant who was expelled, resigned, or made public displays with regards to objections to Hierarchy have nothing to do with us. It is best that we mind our own business. After all, after the trio that appeared after my Instructor’s death who were all failures from our Hierarchy we might very observe the same tendency in others with other similar issues where although we are able to deduce the facts with some accuracy we have enough with our own development of Hierarchy. No one of those three had my permission nor authority to create a Lineage after their shameful failure of our Hierarchy. After all, the best they could do with all of them deceased now we observe that they couldn’t write anything remotely magical or spiritual where they printed books by A.C. passing themselves off as a true Lineage. So, judge and prepare to be judged; for we will not tolerate such presumptuous insolence to go unanswered. You cannot escape the horrors of the recoil for it takes place on planes beyond your comprehension; or if you understood the black brother currents and how they so stereotypically effecting you would not be what you are being what you cannot be not know what We are. You cannot escape your own karma. You cannot know how many times I have seen the same patterns over and over and over again since early on in My Path.
After all, to cultivate the best of the Hierarchy has priority on listening to those outside our Hierarchy with their shame and failure end up like a young boy who holds his breath to make his parent pay attention to him; or scream loudly in frustration that his pranks have to be addressed. Such frustrations from failed aspirants who whine that no one listened to their ideas, who in an amateur attempt with criticism end up persecuting someone, who ignore their Superiors in the Order trying to break chain of command or any number of random ruach masturbation displays where they hideously confuse consensus with their own black brother current of dogma we have observed this first hand.
Any legitimate Hierarchy will have its successful aspirants; but if you permit yourself to be counted among the fallen remember that it was your fault and not your Instructor or Superiors.
Love is the law, love under will